.... ? -A Day When I Questioned even The Post Title-

As I walk to the mirror, tears still dripping off my eyes~
Then i look into the mirror, swollen eyes, red nose,
thinking "how miserable i look.."

Then i put on a smile..
Bigger..
And bigger..
Then a tiny laugh..
..beautiful...

Indeed, even when crying, a smile is still beautiful..
I choose that beautiful thing..

And settled on: A smile is alright with a cry,
and a cry is alright with a smile

Do they exist around you?

What? Who? Where?

Yes more questions. My favourite. Haha. It's for WHO this time. This post will be about drama. Korean drama to be exact. This round, I'll highlight this two dramas: "What's Up"(2010?) and recent "Good Doctor"(2013).

These two dramas have become my favorites so far, in Korean drama league (I always like Japanese dramas better, because they contain lots of meaningful messages. Most of I've watched.) WU and GD have few similarities, in term of the effects on me. -This gonna be a long post ahead-

Good Doctor first. This drama revolves around kids' surgeries. Main character: Autistic child, soon still an autistic grown up. But a doctor. Amazing thing. Subhanallah. It's so inspiring I have to give standing ovation for this drama. Main thing, it tugs my heart. How people try to survive in community. DO PEOPLE LIKE THIS EXIST AROUND YOU?

Maybe it exist in you, yourself. We are different. We try to learn to accept differences in every way we can. That's maturity. Kids are born with the mentality of "everyone is same like me" (learned it in Psychology of Child) Don't get mad if your nephew trying to get you playing Ultraman with him. He thinks you like it just like him. -correct me if I'm wrong- So to accept the fact that not everyone is the same like you is maturity. Learn to treat differences well is another level.

Many people realized this when watching Good Doctor. Good. On the other side, the thing i want to highlight is people around Shi On (main character in GD). Particularly, the professor,Kim Do Han. Why him? He's smart, become a professor at young age. Not a new thing. BUT! He gives so many smack-this-in-your-mind advises up to the point that it amused me. Do people like this exist around YOU? Walk around and gives wise advises to you? If they exist around you, be very grateful. VERY grateful. You might focus on Shi On the whole drama, still, learn how the character develop throughout the drama. There are many people that helped the process. That's what happened in our life too, i think. Thank them. You never know how much they actually gave you.

Shi-on asks whether he should forgive someone if they admit their wrongs.

It depends on the person, Do-han tells him—if they’re looking to clear their own guilty conscience, then no, but it’s okay if it’s sincere. Shi-on says he isn’t sure, so Do-han tells him that it’s simple: just take a look at how they’ve lived their lives afterward. 

—Quoted from dramabeans (Good Doctor ep 17)

"It's simple..." he says. I was utterly amused at this. Deduction that isn't easily you can come up with in short time. The way he said it was very confident too. Life lesson. Just thrown to you simply. ok, drama. I get it. Still, that is WHY i asked the question in the 1st place. If you meet a person or people like this, you need to be grateful (especially if the person is young).

The same thing goes to the 2nd drama, "What's Up". This one, it's more obvious. More of it when you find it in ONE character. When i finished this drama, I went through a thinking process of things I get from the drama. (This drama is quite -dangerous i would say- for Muslims to watch. It's a musical drama. Beware of some songs. Understand the lyrics before singing it. I know the OSTs are all great. But might go against our belief. I'm not being racist or something, just a reminder). It's a great drama though. Take the good things. One of the reason why i took a lot of time before finishing this post: youtube-walking for too long LOL

This is one of the song that's really soothing. About achieving dream? Watch this drama with subtitles. I think they put subtitles while they sing too.

Again i trail off from main topic. This drama has lots of characters, with different stories & backgrounds. AGAIN the Professor in this drama caught my attention. Why this shabby character being brought up? Because he spits life lessons to his students like some kind of dictionary-of-life he is. Episode after episode. It's even so many to be quoted. Sounds like I'm hating it?

Not really. It's good. It puts me into lots of thinking & reflections to my own life. But i find it absurd for a character to be this wise (again, not-so-old for me). I didn't mean that you have to be old to be wise & give life lesson to others. But it still amused me. Because it's true, all he said. I didn't have arguments. Too perfect. Hence the question is asked again. Do a walking-life-dictionary like this appear & live around you? I wonder~

So this is actually a 'wondering' post. I may actually have encountered people like the two professors, in my life, but I'm not paying enough attention. Life lessons. Learn it from people, refer it back to Al-Quran. That's the ultimate guidance. Because we, human, are weak creatures. We need other people to show us the path. Which Allah directs people to us to help find the right path. Thank people. Thank Allah.

-yanaliyana-

How to be/stay positive?

So this came up while i'm on my way back to college,while it rains alot the whole journey. Before i start, this gonna be an entry based on my experiences only, not a research or experiment. If you want one, read journal. On psychology or anything.

I was so down today up to point that i feel sick physically (milk-consumed contributed to that alot though. I dunno why i CAN'T with milk) BUT importantly,my mind was in mess. My emotion was not stable. 1st thing: pray. That helps ALOT. Both mentally & physically. Concentrate on your pray. You'll find peace.

Second: find time to reflect. On your daily activities. While you go through what you did that day/yesterday, you'll somehow find the thing that makes you feel bad/down. Succeed in that, FLIP the negative tone of that bad thing to positive one. That's what I always do, once.

I'll give one example. Yesterday i made my friend angry. Not totally my fault. Feeling bad until today & whole week. Take some time to walk & observe other people. THINK. FLIP. Maybe it happens as to make you realized what your friend didn't like. Fix it, apologized, appreciate friendship more. ASSUME all the good possibilities.

You may be tired from all the busy schedule, human characters that didn't spend their time trying to understand you,,so you told yourself "I'm tired of this. I'm sick of people & world. Let me just sleep.." It works, sleep DOES works. BUT i find it temporary. The problems will come back to you in any times. Try reflect before sleeping. Forgive others. You'll be sleeping in much better state InsyaAllah.

I speak based on experiences. I just passed a phase of my life of being so down until I asked myself "where did your positiveness went? It used to be one of my strongest point" So Allah gave me this realization,Alhamdulillah. I lacked REFLECTION these days. So I feel this should be shared with others. Many times Allah said in Quran

"..don't you think?" (..Tidakkah kamu berfikir?)

PRAY. REFLECT. FLIP. BE POSITIVE.

Love: yanaliyana~

What I did in September...?

So this is the highlight of my September.. I can't say anything anymore,,still too tired. Lets just go through the pictures taken by me:

Playing handball(? bola baling) 
yeah after years of not playing any sports

the weather is quite stormy

Langkawi we met again :-)

I like those smokes haha @ Kuah Jetty

@ the beach where there's only US

Tengkorak Beach. pretty right? Subhanallah

With family 'angkat' (where half of it are my friends)

Rabbit feeding @ garden at Gunung Mt Cincang(or Chencang?) cable car

Managed to climb up here

The view of Seven Well Waterfall is so amazing!

@ harbor. But more interested in this 2 alam boat/van instead of boats/cruise

beach & sea . One of my favourite photo-taken

So..yeah. Lost in the land of thoughts again.

I miss travelling~
-yanaliyana-

How Do I Explain My Tiredness?

Tired
Exhausted
Fatigue

None really explains my situation right now. Deadly tired. Even a message could make my tears drop.

I'll update more later. There're so much to share, yet so little effort & time. Travelling, drama, my trip to Langkawi, so many things, but I need to hold up 1st. Tired. Like an old person. heh.

Hope the next post will be soon.

oh I'll attached few pictures to cover up (since a picture told thousand words eh?) Few highlights of my boring life:

with students in Chinese school

head-class' house

gotong-royong @ tutor's house -rendang tok inthemaking-

raya cookies (coffee & cornflakes)

Masjid Shah Alam (early in da morning with bloating face & swollen eyes)

Puding roti (I guess?) made by my cousin. deliciously eaten with Hershey's choc.

fangirl life. Phantom's new song in August

Raya with ex-elementary schoolmates

Birthday cakes & foods from da gurls

My birthday cake with another 1 classmate. (they playfully use Tamil spelling.
I don't even know which one is my name LOL)

This was in July & August? September pictures in next post.

-I'm tired of pushing myself to eat too-

Till then,
yanaliyana *still smiling*