It's 2015, month of April, but so little update. Not that I'm not loving writing, but once I'm on it, it took hours for just 5-minutes reading. Anyway, 16th April. A day of tragedy for me in 2015.
Question, simple. Why? Why do you do it? I can't understand the act. Should i ask? Yes. Then why not asking? Because i still couldn't bear the consequences. Hence the weak me. Allah is Almighty, may He gives me strength.
16th April 2014 was the South Korea Sewol ferry tragedy. And today become a tragedy in my own history of studying, particularly my practicum era. Burdened, heavy, crying heart. I think it's been long since i let my heart cried instead of real crying. It happened at school.
Arrived in the morning, as usual every Thursday we have Yasin recitation. After that there were Action Song & Public Speaking performances as a practice for upcoming pertandingan. And the kids' crowd was so SO loud. Not of cheering, but of talking. Normal, seen by the school or teachers. But not for us, practicum partners, for me at least.
Talking while other people is talking/giving out speech is rude. It's adab, manner, to listen to others talking. Respect. What happened in the school is students keep talking when there's person infront talking too. A mess. Teachers would just let out a shout or two, then students would keep quiet for a moment, then goes the bee-hives sound again.
I had to tell every cell in my body to stay seated and not throwing fit/things to these students. Not 1/2 or 10, 98% were talking. I'm not blaming students, cause they might not know it's wrong. It's the bad culture in this school. Talking non-stop. Worse: nobody fixing it. As far as i see.
1 of the teacher said "amboi handphone sorang satu" could means every teacher is too fixed on their phone during the performance. So much of manners too, heh, instead of advising the students to stay quiet. Smh. I resisted myself from glancing at the back because i worried i might jeling them.
That's the 1st scene. Managed to calm myself down, continue on my teaching aids in teachers' room. Another scene. A bad one. To the extent of if i take video of it, i think it could be viral and going to cause commotion if uploaded on media. Trying not to back-biting, but as a self-reminder for me in future. It goes..
I heard the noise of teachers repeating word of 'patung'. I lifted up my head from too focusing on my TA, then i watched what was going on. A teacher punished a student by making him stand for long time, standing still there. A punishment for not doing the homework. 1st i thought it was fine, it was normal. Then come the bad parts.
The teacher was playing jokes on the student. Let alone not allowing the student to go back to class to continue his learning. The 'playing jokes' part was joined by other teachers. They laughed at him. Not enough with that, they made him hold a flower, stand behind other teacher ,stay standing still,not moving, unless he say 'i love you' to other teachers. More jokes being played. The teacher suddenly directed the student to stand behind my friend, which was helping me on my TA just besides me. That students clearly feels so ashamed. Or maybe insulted.
A punishment is not wrong. But you know what? The student is not doing the homework not because of he didn't want to. HE IS JUST A SLOW LEARNER BECAUSE HE WAS INVOLVED IN AN ACCIDENT. AND HE IS LABELED AS LAZY BY THAT TEACHER.
Does the teacher knows that? I don't know. But does she asked? Yes. But the student didn't answer. Eager to find the root problem ? (cause i clearly heard she said that the student never do the works she gave, everytime) Eager? Nope. Labelling student as lazy and scolding them are easier. Add humiliation to that. And jokes on student. Wow. Thank you. You lose all my respect.
Which theory did you use to behave students, may i ask? Our Prophet? I don't think so..Western philosopher's theories? As of now i didn't read/find any. I pity that student so much. More when we know why he didn't do his homework. You might just made a student hate a teacher. Or giving him reason to Not go to school. He's also in my friends' class, but they said he never left homework they gave, unfinished. He is well-manner student. So where's the problem come from? I think you can solve the math easily.
I was shaking at that time, cause i need to hold my tears and rage inside. I had to bite inside when other teachers adding jokes and humiliate student more, not even a single teacher stopping the act. They LAUGHED. What's happening with the education world these days?
I ponder. I feel sad. Cause i can't do anything about it at that time. I asked Allah to give me strength to atleast voice it out to higher ups so that they know about this scene. If Allah asked: Yana you see it's wrong. Where's your dakwah? Where's your attempt to stop this wrongdoing? I wish i can come up with the answers then.
Just why? What's the significance of humiliating or punished student that way when there's more better ways? I pray they will soon realized it...
