An appreciation that cannot be reached~

-fangirl post-

Everything comes from Allah and to Him we return to,one day~

I firmly think that many things just happens to be this way because Allah made that. Coincidence? yup, still in Allah's plan. And for this post i weirdly directed it to the korean idol group that means a lot to me, VIXX.

That's why the title is like that. This appreciation will never get to VIXX, mainly because i'm writing this in English, not in Korean, and even if it's in Korean, there's too little chance they would read it.

In a simple words, I always told people that VIXX is my happy pills, each & every members of the group, including Rovix,their mascot robot~ -I once believed leader Cha N hold that account occasionally- I know every kpop fangirls out there has the group/ member they adore, BUT with VIXX, I simply want to THANK them for existing as group. Never once they failed to brighten my day~ 

I just finished watching VIXX File ep 06 at this time i write this post, and truthfully it bring back many memories for the past a year being fan of VIXX. Discovered them myself -because they are new group debuting under Jellyfish Ent, same as Sung SiKyung & Brian Joo back then-, I think i made one of the wisest decision in past. They are very fragile in their debut days, making mistakes here & there, Leo not reaching the right note, Ken's short of breath, Hyuk & Hongbin very few roles, people disliking Ravi's rap, Cha N being Seo In Guk's look-alike,, but day after day,album after album, they are improving. The most that i like is that they stay the same as debut days,personality-wise.

VIXX came to Malaysia in November 2012, during Rock Your Body era, and i witnessed their personalities right in front of my eyes. How they are being cool & charismatic on stage, but very friendly vibe outside of performance. VIXX has become a family, brothers that care for each other. I still remember vividly how Hongbin & Hyuk were SO AWKWARD with each other in the beginning, now, i just wish there are more & more interactions of them. Watching VIXX File ep 06, Hongbin's thanking Leo, Hyuk thinks Ken do great job in bringing them closer, Leo thanking Cha N being a leader, Cha N actually depends on Ravi at times,despite Ravi being younger,, my tears formed unconditionally for these. I FEEL them. THEN suddenly Hongbin broke the teary atmosphere & everyone's laughing, my tears just dropped directly from my eyelid to ground, laughing with them. INDEED they are my happy pills. Sincere to heart, VIXX is~

I make a very best friend with Aya because of them too. I may trail off from this fangirl path sooner or later, but i believe the memories stay, especially having Aya in scene. Some people do know my dark memory during VIXX in Malaysia, but it never really dark. Having the chance to thank Cha N for taking good care of VIXX face-to-face, snatched off from me in seconds, I cried to my heart contain. But I'm not sad for long. I still can talk cheerfully about VIXX with Aya in train back from the event THAT very day the unfortunate event happened. Thinking & talking about VIXX gives me positive feels~

I do miss the old VIXX. But watching their variety shows confirmed me that VIXX never really change since beginning. If they are, their personalities & loudness & brotherhood stays. VIXX is not perfect, but THAT's the reason why i love them. Flaws are what they have, but their SMILEs cure it all -see my blog name if you care.yes. SMILE- my biggest motivation & way of life. Sincerely i thank Allah for leading me to them, i thank VIXX for being who they are, back then & now, really, you guys don't know how it affects the life of an ordinary girl here. There are much more to thank about, more things to reminisce, but it's enough for now :) Thank you Cha N for being a very positive & loud -& annoying- leader, thank you Leo for feeding & taking care of VIXX,besides singing beautifully, thank you Ken for always being Kenjumma even though you have your own hard times, thank you Rabi for being so kind & humble, thank you Hongbin for the sweet smiles & hardwork, thank you Hyuk for talking smart & making me & VIXX proud for having a youngest member like you, THANK YOU VIXX. -yanaliyana-

Cover

Too self-centered?

I did this for a task assigned by my lecturer, to produce a cover for a book. On ANYTHING. so i came up with this. (You know where i got the inspirations he.) ok. done. execute. -yanaliyana-

What silence did to me?

It’s been about a month that I live in my room in hostel alone (thought it’s a two-people room). What did it do to me obviously is I’ve become more silent. I’m not really a person who’s quiet, I’m talkative when I’m comfortable with other party, still, I’m a moody person so when I don’t feel like talking, I prefer being alone/staying silent. 

   Silence does has it’s pros & cons. I just read a tweet: less communication will lower down your brain functions. And 1Q84 by Murakami also mention about Aomame being hidden without anyone with her will lower down her verbal ability. I realized it myself that my sentences seems more scattered than before -cries- what should I do?

   Pros? Hmmm.. I don’t know, but a Hadith with meaning : 

“talk necessary words or stay silent”.

I’m sure it’s beneficial somewhere somehow. Yes I do prefer silent most of the time, and I think it’s good but I don’t actually know how.

I even seems to be lost with words now. That's all for now. It's up to you to talk or stay silent. We just have to mind our words so it won't dragged us to Hell. Da~ yanaliyana