Do they exist around you?

What? Who? Where?

Yes more questions. My favourite. Haha. It's for WHO this time. This post will be about drama. Korean drama to be exact. This round, I'll highlight this two dramas: "What's Up"(2010?) and recent "Good Doctor"(2013).

These two dramas have become my favorites so far, in Korean drama league (I always like Japanese dramas better, because they contain lots of meaningful messages. Most of I've watched.) WU and GD have few similarities, in term of the effects on me. -This gonna be a long post ahead-

Good Doctor first. This drama revolves around kids' surgeries. Main character: Autistic child, soon still an autistic grown up. But a doctor. Amazing thing. Subhanallah. It's so inspiring I have to give standing ovation for this drama. Main thing, it tugs my heart. How people try to survive in community. DO PEOPLE LIKE THIS EXIST AROUND YOU?

Maybe it exist in you, yourself. We are different. We try to learn to accept differences in every way we can. That's maturity. Kids are born with the mentality of "everyone is same like me" (learned it in Psychology of Child) Don't get mad if your nephew trying to get you playing Ultraman with him. He thinks you like it just like him. -correct me if I'm wrong- So to accept the fact that not everyone is the same like you is maturity. Learn to treat differences well is another level.

Many people realized this when watching Good Doctor. Good. On the other side, the thing i want to highlight is people around Shi On (main character in GD). Particularly, the professor,Kim Do Han. Why him? He's smart, become a professor at young age. Not a new thing. BUT! He gives so many smack-this-in-your-mind advises up to the point that it amused me. Do people like this exist around YOU? Walk around and gives wise advises to you? If they exist around you, be very grateful. VERY grateful. You might focus on Shi On the whole drama, still, learn how the character develop throughout the drama. There are many people that helped the process. That's what happened in our life too, i think. Thank them. You never know how much they actually gave you.

Shi-on asks whether he should forgive someone if they admit their wrongs.

It depends on the person, Do-han tells him—if they’re looking to clear their own guilty conscience, then no, but it’s okay if it’s sincere. Shi-on says he isn’t sure, so Do-han tells him that it’s simple: just take a look at how they’ve lived their lives afterward. 

—Quoted from dramabeans (Good Doctor ep 17)

"It's simple..." he says. I was utterly amused at this. Deduction that isn't easily you can come up with in short time. The way he said it was very confident too. Life lesson. Just thrown to you simply. ok, drama. I get it. Still, that is WHY i asked the question in the 1st place. If you meet a person or people like this, you need to be grateful (especially if the person is young).

The same thing goes to the 2nd drama, "What's Up". This one, it's more obvious. More of it when you find it in ONE character. When i finished this drama, I went through a thinking process of things I get from the drama. (This drama is quite -dangerous i would say- for Muslims to watch. It's a musical drama. Beware of some songs. Understand the lyrics before singing it. I know the OSTs are all great. But might go against our belief. I'm not being racist or something, just a reminder). It's a great drama though. Take the good things. One of the reason why i took a lot of time before finishing this post: youtube-walking for too long LOL

This is one of the song that's really soothing. About achieving dream? Watch this drama with subtitles. I think they put subtitles while they sing too.

Again i trail off from main topic. This drama has lots of characters, with different stories & backgrounds. AGAIN the Professor in this drama caught my attention. Why this shabby character being brought up? Because he spits life lessons to his students like some kind of dictionary-of-life he is. Episode after episode. It's even so many to be quoted. Sounds like I'm hating it?

Not really. It's good. It puts me into lots of thinking & reflections to my own life. But i find it absurd for a character to be this wise (again, not-so-old for me). I didn't mean that you have to be old to be wise & give life lesson to others. But it still amused me. Because it's true, all he said. I didn't have arguments. Too perfect. Hence the question is asked again. Do a walking-life-dictionary like this appear & live around you? I wonder~

So this is actually a 'wondering' post. I may actually have encountered people like the two professors, in my life, but I'm not paying enough attention. Life lessons. Learn it from people, refer it back to Al-Quran. That's the ultimate guidance. Because we, human, are weak creatures. We need other people to show us the path. Which Allah directs people to us to help find the right path. Thank people. Thank Allah.

-yanaliyana-

How to be/stay positive?

So this came up while i'm on my way back to college,while it rains alot the whole journey. Before i start, this gonna be an entry based on my experiences only, not a research or experiment. If you want one, read journal. On psychology or anything.

I was so down today up to point that i feel sick physically (milk-consumed contributed to that alot though. I dunno why i CAN'T with milk) BUT importantly,my mind was in mess. My emotion was not stable. 1st thing: pray. That helps ALOT. Both mentally & physically. Concentrate on your pray. You'll find peace.

Second: find time to reflect. On your daily activities. While you go through what you did that day/yesterday, you'll somehow find the thing that makes you feel bad/down. Succeed in that, FLIP the negative tone of that bad thing to positive one. That's what I always do, once.

I'll give one example. Yesterday i made my friend angry. Not totally my fault. Feeling bad until today & whole week. Take some time to walk & observe other people. THINK. FLIP. Maybe it happens as to make you realized what your friend didn't like. Fix it, apologized, appreciate friendship more. ASSUME all the good possibilities.

You may be tired from all the busy schedule, human characters that didn't spend their time trying to understand you,,so you told yourself "I'm tired of this. I'm sick of people & world. Let me just sleep.." It works, sleep DOES works. BUT i find it temporary. The problems will come back to you in any times. Try reflect before sleeping. Forgive others. You'll be sleeping in much better state InsyaAllah.

I speak based on experiences. I just passed a phase of my life of being so down until I asked myself "where did your positiveness went? It used to be one of my strongest point" So Allah gave me this realization,Alhamdulillah. I lacked REFLECTION these days. So I feel this should be shared with others. Many times Allah said in Quran

"..don't you think?" (..Tidakkah kamu berfikir?)

PRAY. REFLECT. FLIP. BE POSITIVE.

Love: yanaliyana~

What I did in September...?

So this is the highlight of my September.. I can't say anything anymore,,still too tired. Lets just go through the pictures taken by me:

Playing handball(? bola baling) 
yeah after years of not playing any sports

the weather is quite stormy

Langkawi we met again :-)

I like those smokes haha @ Kuah Jetty

@ the beach where there's only US

Tengkorak Beach. pretty right? Subhanallah

With family 'angkat' (where half of it are my friends)

Rabbit feeding @ garden at Gunung Mt Cincang(or Chencang?) cable car

Managed to climb up here

The view of Seven Well Waterfall is so amazing!

@ harbor. But more interested in this 2 alam boat/van instead of boats/cruise

beach & sea . One of my favourite photo-taken

So..yeah. Lost in the land of thoughts again.

I miss travelling~
-yanaliyana-

How Do I Explain My Tiredness?

Tired
Exhausted
Fatigue

None really explains my situation right now. Deadly tired. Even a message could make my tears drop.

I'll update more later. There're so much to share, yet so little effort & time. Travelling, drama, my trip to Langkawi, so many things, but I need to hold up 1st. Tired. Like an old person. heh.

Hope the next post will be soon.

oh I'll attached few pictures to cover up (since a picture told thousand words eh?) Few highlights of my boring life:

with students in Chinese school

head-class' house

gotong-royong @ tutor's house -rendang tok inthemaking-

raya cookies (coffee & cornflakes)

Masjid Shah Alam (early in da morning with bloating face & swollen eyes)

Puding roti (I guess?) made by my cousin. deliciously eaten with Hershey's choc.

fangirl life. Phantom's new song in August

Raya with ex-elementary schoolmates

Birthday cakes & foods from da gurls

My birthday cake with another 1 classmate. (they playfully use Tamil spelling.
I don't even know which one is my name LOL)

This was in July & August? September pictures in next post.

-I'm tired of pushing myself to eat too-

Till then,
yanaliyana *still smiling*

An appreciation that cannot be reached~

-fangirl post-

Everything comes from Allah and to Him we return to,one day~

I firmly think that many things just happens to be this way because Allah made that. Coincidence? yup, still in Allah's plan. And for this post i weirdly directed it to the korean idol group that means a lot to me, VIXX.

That's why the title is like that. This appreciation will never get to VIXX, mainly because i'm writing this in English, not in Korean, and even if it's in Korean, there's too little chance they would read it.

In a simple words, I always told people that VIXX is my happy pills, each & every members of the group, including Rovix,their mascot robot~ -I once believed leader Cha N hold that account occasionally- I know every kpop fangirls out there has the group/ member they adore, BUT with VIXX, I simply want to THANK them for existing as group. Never once they failed to brighten my day~ 

I just finished watching VIXX File ep 06 at this time i write this post, and truthfully it bring back many memories for the past a year being fan of VIXX. Discovered them myself -because they are new group debuting under Jellyfish Ent, same as Sung SiKyung & Brian Joo back then-, I think i made one of the wisest decision in past. They are very fragile in their debut days, making mistakes here & there, Leo not reaching the right note, Ken's short of breath, Hyuk & Hongbin very few roles, people disliking Ravi's rap, Cha N being Seo In Guk's look-alike,, but day after day,album after album, they are improving. The most that i like is that they stay the same as debut days,personality-wise.

VIXX came to Malaysia in November 2012, during Rock Your Body era, and i witnessed their personalities right in front of my eyes. How they are being cool & charismatic on stage, but very friendly vibe outside of performance. VIXX has become a family, brothers that care for each other. I still remember vividly how Hongbin & Hyuk were SO AWKWARD with each other in the beginning, now, i just wish there are more & more interactions of them. Watching VIXX File ep 06, Hongbin's thanking Leo, Hyuk thinks Ken do great job in bringing them closer, Leo thanking Cha N being a leader, Cha N actually depends on Ravi at times,despite Ravi being younger,, my tears formed unconditionally for these. I FEEL them. THEN suddenly Hongbin broke the teary atmosphere & everyone's laughing, my tears just dropped directly from my eyelid to ground, laughing with them. INDEED they are my happy pills. Sincere to heart, VIXX is~

I make a very best friend with Aya because of them too. I may trail off from this fangirl path sooner or later, but i believe the memories stay, especially having Aya in scene. Some people do know my dark memory during VIXX in Malaysia, but it never really dark. Having the chance to thank Cha N for taking good care of VIXX face-to-face, snatched off from me in seconds, I cried to my heart contain. But I'm not sad for long. I still can talk cheerfully about VIXX with Aya in train back from the event THAT very day the unfortunate event happened. Thinking & talking about VIXX gives me positive feels~

I do miss the old VIXX. But watching their variety shows confirmed me that VIXX never really change since beginning. If they are, their personalities & loudness & brotherhood stays. VIXX is not perfect, but THAT's the reason why i love them. Flaws are what they have, but their SMILEs cure it all -see my blog name if you care.yes. SMILE- my biggest motivation & way of life. Sincerely i thank Allah for leading me to them, i thank VIXX for being who they are, back then & now, really, you guys don't know how it affects the life of an ordinary girl here. There are much more to thank about, more things to reminisce, but it's enough for now :) Thank you Cha N for being a very positive & loud -& annoying- leader, thank you Leo for feeding & taking care of VIXX,besides singing beautifully, thank you Ken for always being Kenjumma even though you have your own hard times, thank you Rabi for being so kind & humble, thank you Hongbin for the sweet smiles & hardwork, thank you Hyuk for talking smart & making me & VIXX proud for having a youngest member like you, THANK YOU VIXX. -yanaliyana-

Cover

Too self-centered?

I did this for a task assigned by my lecturer, to produce a cover for a book. On ANYTHING. so i came up with this. (You know where i got the inspirations he.) ok. done. execute. -yanaliyana-

What silence did to me?

It’s been about a month that I live in my room in hostel alone (thought it’s a two-people room). What did it do to me obviously is I’ve become more silent. I’m not really a person who’s quiet, I’m talkative when I’m comfortable with other party, still, I’m a moody person so when I don’t feel like talking, I prefer being alone/staying silent. 

   Silence does has it’s pros & cons. I just read a tweet: less communication will lower down your brain functions. And 1Q84 by Murakami also mention about Aomame being hidden without anyone with her will lower down her verbal ability. I realized it myself that my sentences seems more scattered than before -cries- what should I do?

   Pros? Hmmm.. I don’t know, but a Hadith with meaning : 

“talk necessary words or stay silent”.

I’m sure it’s beneficial somewhere somehow. Yes I do prefer silent most of the time, and I think it’s good but I don’t actually know how.

I even seems to be lost with words now. That's all for now. It's up to you to talk or stay silent. We just have to mind our words so it won't dragged us to Hell. Da~ yanaliyana

Why worth living?

Hi abandoned blog. There're much things happened in my life but all tends to circle only in my head,lazy to write.

Why this title interest me? As a Muslim,it's my duty to become humble servant to Allah cause this world is only a short journey for eternal life Hereafter. Then comes this question,i believe it not as coincidence cause it's being asked to myself -not directly & literally of coarse- too many times. 1st because of vampire japanese drama that i encounter,it tugged my heart at the sentence: 16 years is already enough to live. There's no more mean to life~ i ..WHUT??

Then another drama,korean drama with gumiho (nine-tailed fox) theme,where a questioned like this is asked: why do you choose short life of human being instead of immortal life of gumiho (a fictional story yeah,my fav) ? Why give up immortal? Why worth living when you know you'll die one day?

And the last thing i encountered recently during my semester break, the four kittens in my house had been in fever,one after another. One failed to survived,heartbreaking death in our kitchen. So me & mum tried our best to keep the other 3 alive. It's not an easy task because they can't talk. I keep shouting to the kitten "Live!!! Please be alive!! ㅠㅠ" until that words come to my ownself,it's really worth living. I suspect this is a task, thinking it as task Allah gave me after i kept asking "why my current life is so boring? Nothing to achieve,can't set an aim?" Allah may answer this with this question back: why do you LIVE yana? One may feel their life pretty much worthless, while another struggle to live short life,fullfill it to the most rather than empty immortal life.

The question i still yet not find solid conclusion, but i get the hints ^^. You may want to ask yourself too,what life is to you? Happy thinking~ yanaliyana

Why there's tears?

There are 2 things that made me cried instantly without a second delay,when i heard the statements.

                                                 One: there'll be more women than men in hell.
                                    Two: what if one day Malaysia lost its stand as Islamic country?

        Tears just fall down without me realizing it at the beginning~ More women in the hell. it's true,as stated in hadith. its easy for women to go to heaven: be obedient to Allah & Phophet SAW, and be obedient to husband. simple. yet not easy to do. go against it, hell is waiting.

        What if Malaysia will no longer be an Islamic country? Just thinking of it gives me goosebumps. It's different from originally living in non-Islamic country,where muslims are minority~ can you imagine the damages Malaysian, Muslims in Malaysia did until Malaysia lost its Islamic title? it's not really hard to imagine isn't it? but i hope it's not gonna happen, Nauzubillah. i remember telling myself: i rather not be in Malaysia if it fall, i rather not seeing the destruction using my own eyes. i'm just an avoidance person like that.

       What should i do then? Pray pray and pray. Doa. The weapon for all muslims. Reflect. Be a good muslim. a reminder for ME and you. -yanaliyana

Teacher vs bad students?

i wonder what would i be if i'm not in education field. maybe a doctor? but i understand that i don't have enough qualification for a doctor. Maybe a teacher is really a suitable career for me. i'm a hipster, but in education field, especially in Malaysia, i found that it's a good thing being one.

Dr. Mahaliza, my lecturer said: kamu kena sedar, setelah kamu terjun dalam bidang ni, selamanya kamu akan berada dalam bidang ni sampai pencen. cikgu. kalau kamu tak boleh nak kawal pelajar kamu, sentuh lah hati dia" "kalau kamu berdepan dengan pelajar yang nakal ni, cari ibu dia. kepala gangster. dulu saya mengajar satu kelas, ketua pelajar nakal ni adelah gangster. saya jadikan dia ketua kelas. pengedar dadah, tp saya bagi dia duit belanja hari2, dia tak buat dah. ketua gangster ataupun pemimpin negara, they have the same quality: leadership. either it is used for positive or negative things. YOU teach them.

Coincidentally, ummi talked about the same issue on that very same day. problematic kids. -but don't see them as problems. see them as challenges- "ummi waktu masih baru jadi guru, depa bagi kelas hujung. saje... dan kelas ni semua lelaki. 27 lelaki dalam 1 kelas. sedang ummi mengajar, dah tak tahan ni, sebab seorang pelajar ni memang kurang ajar & tak endah ummi kat depan. Ummi tampar dia" -all of us in keep quiet,because we don't expect ummi to slap a student or we were just shocked of ummi's confession,i don't know- "tapi ummi nak lempang tu,ummi selawat dulu. & hari2 ummi doakan dia. tu je sekali ummi lempang pelajar. hujung tahun ummi mintak maaf, tapi pelajar tu cakap: takpe ustazah, kalau ustazah tak lempang saya masa tu, saya tak tau ape saya akan jadi harini" -which of coarse a good thing-

Dr Mahaliza always stress on: don't predict what your students gonna be in future, especially telling them: awak ni nanti jadi sampah masyarakat. and don't keep blaming them for their past. today's mistake is today's. don't go: semalam awak tak siap kerja. harini awak datang lambat. minggu depan gagal ujian blablabla DON'T EVER DO THIS. i think this applies in other scenarios in our lives too.

i've had an experience related to this too. when a teacher -i dunno the word,forgot- bila cikgu tuduh anda bukan ditempat yang betul. a teacher told me i slept during her class, that's why i can't answer and she doesn't let me defend myself. i'm so mad because it's hard to stay awake in her afternoon class & she blame me sleeping. i told myself then "you gotta proved you're not stupid yana, for sleeping in her class. proved you can do best". i got A for her subject in PMR though it's not my favourite subject.

sometimes i wonder, don't we sometimes need a teacher that down-graded us,so we can take it as challenge? so we can comeback to them when we succeed and give them 'in-your-face' sweet revenge for proving them wrong? but of coz i don't want to be bad teacher. i just have to think smart to pretend like one hahahaha ok 끝. i have to plan on that act later.

yanaliyana.

Shouldn't I questioned myself?

I went to an event JUST recently..and today a news come to me..the 1st one makes me extremely happy & hyper, but the news really broke my heart -as a fangirl & human-

The other side of event: it teaches me to depend on Allah fully &highly~ the maghrib prayer,the bus incident~ but the news... i ask Allah why is these happening to me...happy+too sad..in solat few tears dropped..

..but then i read Quran... "Surah Al-Qiyama, Verse 35: Again (consider how) nearer to you and nearer. (English - Shakir)" ㅠㅠㅠㅠ i broke down for real.. Allah didn't reply me the answer..instead He makes me asked myself back: don't you think about world Hereafter yana? it's far bigger matter~ i broke down...really...why questioned Allah's plan when i should questioned myself ㅠㅠ trembling,i cried so hard..and feel calmer after that..thank you Allah..thank you for always answering me~

To Judged or to Not Judged?

JUDGE. 

Judge. we all judged don't we? i'm not an exception. it's in our blood,in most human blood. But i've been denying that i judged other people like..many people did? but ..what do i call my act then?

i've been thinking in toilet (yeah the usual thinking place) about the actually judging others but denying it. There's one 'ceramah' i'd attended in past. At one point, a student asked the panel: we can't deny that most people has this third eye,that it feels like it's glued to our forehead. JUDGING eye. how do we stop judging others? cause we knows mostly its as if we look down on others."

i actually pfftt at this question (silently of coarse). because i didn't feel him. The panel answered that we can't throw it wholely, but we istighfar after that. -i forgot the rest of the answer- it brings to me, why..? didn't i feel him? that question doesn't directed at me?

i suggest answer from alot of thinking. i judged. yes. But i don't judged and assume. Agak-agaknya orang ni tak suka aku.. Budak ni ponteng sekolah kot.. ASSUME,right? What i did was,true,judged too~ but i didn't follow with assuming..i followed with QUESTIONS. aku buat salah ke? kenapa agaknya budak ni bukan kat sekolah? kenapa boleh jadi pergaduhan? QUESTIONS..of coz i don't get answers. But it didn't turn out to be bad in act,right?

Mum once told me: people sometimes asked me, "why do you send all your children into boarding schools?" mum answered: "because i feel that they can learn something that i can't teach at home"..and i've been thinking this is one of the reason: to judged but questions more,not assuming. the more people you live with,the more questions come to you. Allah had said for His servants to THINK too. and connects all back to Him. THINK. QUESTIONS. no regrets, no ill-mannered in your heart.

yanaliyana

Here I Come!!!

لسَّلاَمُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَاتُهُl

& Hai..

1st, yeay!! a blog! alhamdulillah? maybe hehe i just wish there'll be no 'mengumpat' when i write~ so here's few hints of why what who where about this blog & me.

Nurul Liyana, my name, on internet people know me as "yanaliyana". blame facebook for that name. I write a lot, speak less, but it took LONG before i started a blog.. ketinggalan zaman kan? oh well, i should treat blog as i treat my twitter. TALK TO YOURSELF, not talk to others. 

This should be about my boring life, my interests: books, drama, travelling, brain, etc etc.. my next post should be about PBS (pengalaman berasaskan sekolah) in Langkawi for a week, where my 1st post should be about my rant about Malaysia education system. disorganized yana *shoot self*

anyway, feel free to comment if you stumble on this blog, or just blogwalking..

till next time,

-smile & bright up the world-