Why there's tears?

There are 2 things that made me cried instantly without a second delay,when i heard the statements.

                                                 One: there'll be more women than men in hell.
                                    Two: what if one day Malaysia lost its stand as Islamic country?

        Tears just fall down without me realizing it at the beginning~ More women in the hell. it's true,as stated in hadith. its easy for women to go to heaven: be obedient to Allah & Phophet SAW, and be obedient to husband. simple. yet not easy to do. go against it, hell is waiting.

        What if Malaysia will no longer be an Islamic country? Just thinking of it gives me goosebumps. It's different from originally living in non-Islamic country,where muslims are minority~ can you imagine the damages Malaysian, Muslims in Malaysia did until Malaysia lost its Islamic title? it's not really hard to imagine isn't it? but i hope it's not gonna happen, Nauzubillah. i remember telling myself: i rather not be in Malaysia if it fall, i rather not seeing the destruction using my own eyes. i'm just an avoidance person like that.

       What should i do then? Pray pray and pray. Doa. The weapon for all muslims. Reflect. Be a good muslim. a reminder for ME and you. -yanaliyana

Teacher vs bad students?

i wonder what would i be if i'm not in education field. maybe a doctor? but i understand that i don't have enough qualification for a doctor. Maybe a teacher is really a suitable career for me. i'm a hipster, but in education field, especially in Malaysia, i found that it's a good thing being one.

Dr. Mahaliza, my lecturer said: kamu kena sedar, setelah kamu terjun dalam bidang ni, selamanya kamu akan berada dalam bidang ni sampai pencen. cikgu. kalau kamu tak boleh nak kawal pelajar kamu, sentuh lah hati dia" "kalau kamu berdepan dengan pelajar yang nakal ni, cari ibu dia. kepala gangster. dulu saya mengajar satu kelas, ketua pelajar nakal ni adelah gangster. saya jadikan dia ketua kelas. pengedar dadah, tp saya bagi dia duit belanja hari2, dia tak buat dah. ketua gangster ataupun pemimpin negara, they have the same quality: leadership. either it is used for positive or negative things. YOU teach them.

Coincidentally, ummi talked about the same issue on that very same day. problematic kids. -but don't see them as problems. see them as challenges- "ummi waktu masih baru jadi guru, depa bagi kelas hujung. saje... dan kelas ni semua lelaki. 27 lelaki dalam 1 kelas. sedang ummi mengajar, dah tak tahan ni, sebab seorang pelajar ni memang kurang ajar & tak endah ummi kat depan. Ummi tampar dia" -all of us in keep quiet,because we don't expect ummi to slap a student or we were just shocked of ummi's confession,i don't know- "tapi ummi nak lempang tu,ummi selawat dulu. & hari2 ummi doakan dia. tu je sekali ummi lempang pelajar. hujung tahun ummi mintak maaf, tapi pelajar tu cakap: takpe ustazah, kalau ustazah tak lempang saya masa tu, saya tak tau ape saya akan jadi harini" -which of coarse a good thing-

Dr Mahaliza always stress on: don't predict what your students gonna be in future, especially telling them: awak ni nanti jadi sampah masyarakat. and don't keep blaming them for their past. today's mistake is today's. don't go: semalam awak tak siap kerja. harini awak datang lambat. minggu depan gagal ujian blablabla DON'T EVER DO THIS. i think this applies in other scenarios in our lives too.

i've had an experience related to this too. when a teacher -i dunno the word,forgot- bila cikgu tuduh anda bukan ditempat yang betul. a teacher told me i slept during her class, that's why i can't answer and she doesn't let me defend myself. i'm so mad because it's hard to stay awake in her afternoon class & she blame me sleeping. i told myself then "you gotta proved you're not stupid yana, for sleeping in her class. proved you can do best". i got A for her subject in PMR though it's not my favourite subject.

sometimes i wonder, don't we sometimes need a teacher that down-graded us,so we can take it as challenge? so we can comeback to them when we succeed and give them 'in-your-face' sweet revenge for proving them wrong? but of coz i don't want to be bad teacher. i just have to think smart to pretend like one hahahaha ok 끝. i have to plan on that act later.

yanaliyana.

Shouldn't I questioned myself?

I went to an event JUST recently..and today a news come to me..the 1st one makes me extremely happy & hyper, but the news really broke my heart -as a fangirl & human-

The other side of event: it teaches me to depend on Allah fully &highly~ the maghrib prayer,the bus incident~ but the news... i ask Allah why is these happening to me...happy+too sad..in solat few tears dropped..

..but then i read Quran... "Surah Al-Qiyama, Verse 35: Again (consider how) nearer to you and nearer. (English - Shakir)" ㅠㅠㅠㅠ i broke down for real.. Allah didn't reply me the answer..instead He makes me asked myself back: don't you think about world Hereafter yana? it's far bigger matter~ i broke down...really...why questioned Allah's plan when i should questioned myself ㅠㅠ trembling,i cried so hard..and feel calmer after that..thank you Allah..thank you for always answering me~

To Judged or to Not Judged?

JUDGE. 

Judge. we all judged don't we? i'm not an exception. it's in our blood,in most human blood. But i've been denying that i judged other people like..many people did? but ..what do i call my act then?

i've been thinking in toilet (yeah the usual thinking place) about the actually judging others but denying it. There's one 'ceramah' i'd attended in past. At one point, a student asked the panel: we can't deny that most people has this third eye,that it feels like it's glued to our forehead. JUDGING eye. how do we stop judging others? cause we knows mostly its as if we look down on others."

i actually pfftt at this question (silently of coarse). because i didn't feel him. The panel answered that we can't throw it wholely, but we istighfar after that. -i forgot the rest of the answer- it brings to me, why..? didn't i feel him? that question doesn't directed at me?

i suggest answer from alot of thinking. i judged. yes. But i don't judged and assume. Agak-agaknya orang ni tak suka aku.. Budak ni ponteng sekolah kot.. ASSUME,right? What i did was,true,judged too~ but i didn't follow with assuming..i followed with QUESTIONS. aku buat salah ke? kenapa agaknya budak ni bukan kat sekolah? kenapa boleh jadi pergaduhan? QUESTIONS..of coz i don't get answers. But it didn't turn out to be bad in act,right?

Mum once told me: people sometimes asked me, "why do you send all your children into boarding schools?" mum answered: "because i feel that they can learn something that i can't teach at home"..and i've been thinking this is one of the reason: to judged but questions more,not assuming. the more people you live with,the more questions come to you. Allah had said for His servants to THINK too. and connects all back to Him. THINK. QUESTIONS. no regrets, no ill-mannered in your heart.

yanaliyana

Here I Come!!!

لسَّلاَمُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَاتُهُl

& Hai..

1st, yeay!! a blog! alhamdulillah? maybe hehe i just wish there'll be no 'mengumpat' when i write~ so here's few hints of why what who where about this blog & me.

Nurul Liyana, my name, on internet people know me as "yanaliyana". blame facebook for that name. I write a lot, speak less, but it took LONG before i started a blog.. ketinggalan zaman kan? oh well, i should treat blog as i treat my twitter. TALK TO YOURSELF, not talk to others. 

This should be about my boring life, my interests: books, drama, travelling, brain, etc etc.. my next post should be about PBS (pengalaman berasaskan sekolah) in Langkawi for a week, where my 1st post should be about my rant about Malaysia education system. disorganized yana *shoot self*

anyway, feel free to comment if you stumble on this blog, or just blogwalking..

till next time,

-smile & bright up the world-